Post-Birthday Gift List

So my birthday went really well. All the previous freaking out was unnecessary because when my birthday came and went, I still felt the same. LOL. Guess I was being childish. Celebrated with 11 of my closest friends at China Mood in Bustan and it was amazing. China Mood is my all time favourite restaurant and the company was amazing. Next morning a friend and I cooked brunch at her place for a group of friends and later went to another friend's place to watch the game. Saturday which was my actual birthday, we watched the game at a local cafe and I was surprised later with cheesecake and a candle. It was great.

So its a few days after my birthday and I think the gifts stopped coming in now. This is what I got so far:

* A Spa Package from a group of friends - 4.5 hours at Essence Spa. I cant wait. This was on my wish list and Im excited.

* A Massage from a friend from Essence Spa. I will bulk it with the spa package and spend the entire day there. LOL

* My favourite perfume Narcisso Rodriguez and the shower gel from Daddy.

* A Hyatt Privelege Card from my sister which includes a one night stay at the Hyatt and a whole bunch of other things.

* A One night stay at the Chedi from my brother. Actually it was the thought. He gave me the cash for it and Im still carrying it around. So I guess I can get myself the one night stay at Chedi or just use the cash for shopping or whatever.

* Other gifts from friends included Swarovski earrings, Escada perfume, Sayed Junaid arabic perfume and a bra and panty bags. LOOOL.

Im 30 and Im happy.

My 30th Birthday Wishlist - Part 2

I couldnt continue on the original one cos pics stopped uploading on that post. Thought maybe its a size issue. Anyways here is a list of the more realistic birthday wants. LOOOL.

* A Spa Package - I guess Im just the kind of person that is too lazy to go treat myself. But this is something that I would really like / enjoy.


* An Areej Gift Certificate - I need to stock up on makeup and cosmetics.

* An Italy Shirt - World Cup is coming up and Im rooting for Italy. They have been my team fr the past 5 years. Their boys are hot. LOOOL

* Mini 3gal - Ive been trying to get my hands on these but I cant. I have emailed them but no reply. Maybe someone else will be more successful.

* A Decent Pair of Trainers - These are pretty much what I want. I can never find any here. And if I do find the style I like, they have always run out of my size.

* Peace of Mind - Again. A top Priority. Wish it was something you could buy in a store.

My 30th Birthday Wishlist

I was first asked by my sister a couple of months ago what I wanted for my birthday since its the big three O. Then over the past couple of weeks I was asked again by a few close friends. I do this list every year but I guess this year I was procrastinating a little cos Im kinda freaked out about kissing my twenties goodbye. Ive never really been the kind of person that really cares about age but I dont know what happened this year.

So basically here is my list - which I know I will not be getting most of them but thats why its called a "wish" list. LOL. They are in no particular order.

* iPad - it never really interested me when it came out but my brother got one as a gift and i tested it out. its quite entertaining. Guess it will be very useful / fun when more places in Oman start having free wifi.

* An all expenses paid trip to Dubai for my birthday weekend - As per tradition, Ive been going every year for my birthday and making all the arrangements and even driving myself and my friends there. This time I wanna go without a care in the world. I want someone to make full arrangements and everything. I wanna go and relax with friends and loved ones. Chill by the beach, get a killer tan and come back relaxed.

* A Tag Heuer Formula 1 Edition Watch - Now Ive had my eye on this watch for a while. Its a mens watch yes I know but I dont have problems since I wear my dad's watches all the time. Isnt it a beauty??

* A specific Gucci Bag - Now this is something Ive also had my eye on for a loooong time. I love the shape of these ones but I never liked the mirror / metal bits they usually had on them and then they came out with some gorgeous non-metally ones such as this one. Yesterday I was watching a movie on TV and the exact same one I want was carried by the girl in the movie. The movie was about a bratty rich american chick who goes to a suburban English boarding school (black and white creases folded in - had a pic of it will put it up when I find it)

* A surprise birthday party - Ive never had a surprise party thrown for me. I guess cos its always been me that organises everything and thinks up surprise parties.

* A Narciso Rodriguez Eau De Toilette gift set - and I mean the full shebang. With the body lotion and the shower gel and everything. Its my all time favourite perfume and I decided not to buy it myself when mine ran out last week to keep something affordable on this list. LOOOL. People dont be fooled by the limited edition whatevers - its the exact same perfume they just come out with different bottles every once in a while.

* A Night at Al Bustan Palace Hotel - Ive seen some of the rooms there and they are out of this world after the renovation. Preferably one of those lagoon rooms where you access a semi-private "lagoon" pool from your balcony.

* Peace of mind - will leave it at that

Dear You, The Blood Running Through My Veins

Great things come to those who wait.

Another cliche comment / remark that is often used when someone is complaining about their life or about what they want and are not getting. This is a typical thing I always say to people when I am their shoulder to cry on or ear to listen to.

What goes around comes around. God takes from you and gives you back in multiples.

How many times have we said these things but not really applied them to ourselves. How many times have we given advice to people that we don't follow ourselves. This is human nature.

When you least expect it, it falls into your lap.

Never before have I ever truly believed in this. Until recently. To be exact Saturday 20th of March and confirmed on Monday 22nd March 2010. This is a day I will cherish forever.

Dear You,

I now truly believe that I have been a good person in my life. I now truly believe in all those sayings that I often used to comfort others. I now truly believe that the time for my own happiness has come. I now truly believe that it is MY time. I have found myself in you. I have realised my aim in life and it is to be with you.

I am finally at peace. I am finally happy. Whether the end comes or not, I will still cherish every moment spent with you. You are my family, my life, my future and most importantly my present. I look forward to more days to come. I have walked away from my childhood home towards you. I just hope the destination is not too far away.

Yes, things are happening too fast. Yes, I am hesitant and not as adventurous as I believed I am. But I like it that way. The controls are not with me. For once, I am being led instead of leading and I cannot imagine having it any other way anymore. Yet, I am confident with every step of the way. Sure of every move.

I wake up with a smile on my face. I sleep with a smile on my face. Tears are foreign to me now. Sleepless nights are a thing of the past. It is time for a new beginning.

I belong to you. I belong WITH you. I want to announce to the world how I feel about you and that I am yours but since I cannot yet, this is my "scream from the rooftops".

Only yours,
M

For My King

He Got Married

I thought I would be really upset if he ever did but I am not at all - in fact Im very happy for him since he wanted to get married a long time ago but I was "unacceptable" to his family because Im shee3iya.

Biltawfeeq - minik ilmal oo minha il3eyal

16.10.2009

Finally I took that step.

Dear Stranger

Surprised?? That I am calling you a stranger?? Well what else should I call you?? The Love of My Life?? You are no longer. Unfortunately that is not the way that God wanted it. I may have completely removed you from my heart and my mind. But apparently my body still wants you back. Dont worry that will never happen. I would rather rip myself to shreds than even consider putting myself in that situation again.

You are now a stranger to me because the one I knew no longer exists. The one I knew would never have gone this far. Do I forgive you?? Yes I have forgiven you a looooong time ago. You know me, I am not one to hold grudges. Do I forget?? Never.

I am moving on. No scrap that, I HAVE moved on a long time ago. Why am I not in anything permanent?? Dont flatter yourself. I do not compare anyone to you. I guess I am just not willing to put any effort anymore. I am no longer interested in sharing my life with anyone or anything. I am no longer emotionally capable of trusting blindly such as I was with you. I am not even willing to give anyone a chance. Its my defense mechanism. I do it to protect myself. And I have you to thank for that. You made me the person I am today. Stronger, independant and cold. Very very cold.

I do not blame you. I blame myself for allowing the situation to go as far as I did. All the signs were there I just chose to ignore them. Everything I said I would never do, I did. Everything I said I wouldnt be, I have become.

This is the way God wanted it. And this is the way I will live my life. This doesnt mean that I will sit back cross-armed and not attempt to make my life a better life. No. I am working on it. Hard. Killing myself in fact physically, emotionally and mentally. But I have an aim in life. And I am going to acheive my aim. Including all the dreams I discussed with you. Except I will hold my head up high and proud because I would have done them all myself. Even if it means that you are not by my side. It is your loss not mine.

You are just a flicker of a memory in the back of my mind. I will not deny, I still cry over you sometimes. But mostly tears of joy for getting out of it before it was too late.

Good luck and I truly hope you are leading your life the way you intended.