My 30th Birthday Wishlist - Part 2

I couldnt continue on the original one cos pics stopped uploading on that post. Thought maybe its a size issue. Anyways here is a list of the more realistic birthday wants. LOOOL.

* A Spa Package - I guess Im just the kind of person that is too lazy to go treat myself. But this is something that I would really like / enjoy.


* An Areej Gift Certificate - I need to stock up on makeup and cosmetics.

* An Italy Shirt - World Cup is coming up and Im rooting for Italy. They have been my team fr the past 5 years. Their boys are hot. LOOOL

* Mini 3gal - Ive been trying to get my hands on these but I cant. I have emailed them but no reply. Maybe someone else will be more successful.

* A Decent Pair of Trainers - These are pretty much what I want. I can never find any here. And if I do find the style I like, they have always run out of my size.

* Peace of Mind - Again. A top Priority. Wish it was something you could buy in a store.

My 30th Birthday Wishlist

I was first asked by my sister a couple of months ago what I wanted for my birthday since its the big three O. Then over the past couple of weeks I was asked again by a few close friends. I do this list every year but I guess this year I was procrastinating a little cos Im kinda freaked out about kissing my twenties goodbye. Ive never really been the kind of person that really cares about age but I dont know what happened this year.

So basically here is my list - which I know I will not be getting most of them but thats why its called a "wish" list. LOL. They are in no particular order.

* iPad - it never really interested me when it came out but my brother got one as a gift and i tested it out. its quite entertaining. Guess it will be very useful / fun when more places in Oman start having free wifi.

* An all expenses paid trip to Dubai for my birthday weekend - As per tradition, Ive been going every year for my birthday and making all the arrangements and even driving myself and my friends there. This time I wanna go without a care in the world. I want someone to make full arrangements and everything. I wanna go and relax with friends and loved ones. Chill by the beach, get a killer tan and come back relaxed.

* A Tag Heuer Formula 1 Edition Watch - Now Ive had my eye on this watch for a while. Its a mens watch yes I know but I dont have problems since I wear my dad's watches all the time. Isnt it a beauty??

* A specific Gucci Bag - Now this is something Ive also had my eye on for a loooong time. I love the shape of these ones but I never liked the mirror / metal bits they usually had on them and then they came out with some gorgeous non-metally ones such as this one. Yesterday I was watching a movie on TV and the exact same one I want was carried by the girl in the movie. The movie was about a bratty rich american chick who goes to a suburban English boarding school (black and white creases folded in - had a pic of it will put it up when I find it)

* A surprise birthday party - Ive never had a surprise party thrown for me. I guess cos its always been me that organises everything and thinks up surprise parties.

* A Narciso Rodriguez Eau De Toilette gift set - and I mean the full shebang. With the body lotion and the shower gel and everything. Its my all time favourite perfume and I decided not to buy it myself when mine ran out last week to keep something affordable on this list. LOOOL. People dont be fooled by the limited edition whatevers - its the exact same perfume they just come out with different bottles every once in a while.

* A Night at Al Bustan Palace Hotel - Ive seen some of the rooms there and they are out of this world after the renovation. Preferably one of those lagoon rooms where you access a semi-private "lagoon" pool from your balcony.

* Peace of mind - will leave it at that

Dear You, The Blood Running Through My Veins

Great things come to those who wait.

Another cliche comment / remark that is often used when someone is complaining about their life or about what they want and are not getting. This is a typical thing I always say to people when I am their shoulder to cry on or ear to listen to.

What goes around comes around. God takes from you and gives you back in multiples.

How many times have we said these things but not really applied them to ourselves. How many times have we given advice to people that we don't follow ourselves. This is human nature.

When you least expect it, it falls into your lap.

Never before have I ever truly believed in this. Until recently. To be exact Saturday 20th of March and confirmed on Monday 22nd March 2010. This is a day I will cherish forever.

Dear You,

I now truly believe that I have been a good person in my life. I now truly believe in all those sayings that I often used to comfort others. I now truly believe that the time for my own happiness has come. I now truly believe that it is MY time. I have found myself in you. I have realised my aim in life and it is to be with you.

I am finally at peace. I am finally happy. Whether the end comes or not, I will still cherish every moment spent with you. You are my family, my life, my future and most importantly my present. I look forward to more days to come. I have walked away from my childhood home towards you. I just hope the destination is not too far away.

Yes, things are happening too fast. Yes, I am hesitant and not as adventurous as I believed I am. But I like it that way. The controls are not with me. For once, I am being led instead of leading and I cannot imagine having it any other way anymore. Yet, I am confident with every step of the way. Sure of every move.

I wake up with a smile on my face. I sleep with a smile on my face. Tears are foreign to me now. Sleepless nights are a thing of the past. It is time for a new beginning.

I belong to you. I belong WITH you. I want to announce to the world how I feel about you and that I am yours but since I cannot yet, this is my "scream from the rooftops".

Only yours,
M

For My King

He Got Married

I thought I would be really upset if he ever did but I am not at all - in fact Im very happy for him since he wanted to get married a long time ago but I was "unacceptable" to his family because Im shee3iya.

Biltawfeeq - minik ilmal oo minha il3eyal

16.10.2009

Finally I took that step.

Dear Stranger

Surprised?? That I am calling you a stranger?? Well what else should I call you?? The Love of My Life?? You are no longer. Unfortunately that is not the way that God wanted it. I may have completely removed you from my heart and my mind. But apparently my body still wants you back. Dont worry that will never happen. I would rather rip myself to shreds than even consider putting myself in that situation again.

You are now a stranger to me because the one I knew no longer exists. The one I knew would never have gone this far. Do I forgive you?? Yes I have forgiven you a looooong time ago. You know me, I am not one to hold grudges. Do I forget?? Never.

I am moving on. No scrap that, I HAVE moved on a long time ago. Why am I not in anything permanent?? Dont flatter yourself. I do not compare anyone to you. I guess I am just not willing to put any effort anymore. I am no longer interested in sharing my life with anyone or anything. I am no longer emotionally capable of trusting blindly such as I was with you. I am not even willing to give anyone a chance. Its my defense mechanism. I do it to protect myself. And I have you to thank for that. You made me the person I am today. Stronger, independant and cold. Very very cold.

I do not blame you. I blame myself for allowing the situation to go as far as I did. All the signs were there I just chose to ignore them. Everything I said I would never do, I did. Everything I said I wouldnt be, I have become.

This is the way God wanted it. And this is the way I will live my life. This doesnt mean that I will sit back cross-armed and not attempt to make my life a better life. No. I am working on it. Hard. Killing myself in fact physically, emotionally and mentally. But I have an aim in life. And I am going to acheive my aim. Including all the dreams I discussed with you. Except I will hold my head up high and proud because I would have done them all myself. Even if it means that you are not by my side. It is your loss not mine.

You are just a flicker of a memory in the back of my mind. I will not deny, I still cry over you sometimes. But mostly tears of joy for getting out of it before it was too late.

Good luck and I truly hope you are leading your life the way you intended.

P.S.

I got a new haircut - well bangs basically.

Everyone thinks it looks good on me even though I wasnt really convinced until a week later.

Today people at work saw my new cut and positive reviews so far.

Boss walks in this morning and told me I look good.

Now he just passed by and called me a poodle. LOL

Update: I beleive the exact word he used was "kaneesh / kaniche"

And Life Moves On

Awalan I would like to say Kil 3am wintu ib alf 9i7a oo salamah oo mbariken 3eedkum. Hope you all enjoyed the holidays. I must say that I did in fact enjoy my holiday very much.

Thursday was last working day and Friday morning I was all packed and already hitting the road to Dubai. I spent the entire holiday there (9 days). On average I was sleeping around 12 hours a day and spending the majority of my waking hours snuggling on the couch with a blanket and a cup of coffee watching whatever movie was currently playing on TV. By late evening, I would finally get bored and motivated enough by the harrassement of phone calls from friends asking me what the hell I was doing home all day when Im on holiday, I MIGHT by then consider doing something social. It usually consisted of either going out for sheesha or having friends over for a game of cards.

On an occasion when I had about 5 friends over, as usual the subject of my singledom was brought up. Apparently they all mutually know of 2 or 3 people that are interested in me but have reported back saying something either like "Shes very cold" or the most common "She isnt interested at all". So I gave in and agreed to go on a blind date with a friend's friend who was apparently perfect for me. He just proved how perfect he was when he propositioned me within 15 minutes of meeting. Needless to say I went straight home and dove into my position for the week.

I have never considered myself a pessimist nor the kind of person who looks at life negatively. But I am beginning to be this person. I guess life teaches you to be callous the hard way. In the past 2 years, I have only met one guy that I was remotely interested or attracted to. And he dissappointed me greatly. I guess Im just not physically nor emotionally prepared to go through the process of getting to know someone new.

I am now a strong beleiver in arranged marriages. From what Im seeing arund me, they are the only marriages that are truly working.

Swine Flu Statistics - Oman

According to this - apparently 928 cases identified in Oman of which 9 resulted in death.

It sounds about right doesnt it?? Thats less than 1% fatality rate.

Source: http://www.flucount.org/

Ramadhan Reflections

I know I know

I have been neglecting my blog for a while for various different reasons - mainly its time constraints. I have been keeping myself really busy on the weekends. Mostly either going to Dubai or hosting friends in town. The last weekend before Ramadhan, I spent it on a one night getaway out of town but in Oman with my cousins. It was a nice change.

So much has happened and like every Ramadhan, whenever it comes, I actually stand back and reflect on the past year. For me Ramadhan to Ramadhan is actually more of a beginngin / end of year as opposed to December 31st.

This year when Ramadhan arrives I was completely unprepared and in fact a little taken aback since it came back so fast. 2009 in general has flown by for me (others will disagreee of course) but honestly I remember last Eid like it was this morning.

So looking back, I evaluate the changes that occurred in my life since last October. I must say that this period (October 08 to August 09) has been the most life altering phase of my life. I have moved jobs. I started my MBA. I lost people I cared about and more importantly I eliminated a lot of people that did me harm. All are decisions I do NOT regret at all as since October 08 I am actually a much better person.

I may not be surrounded by as many friends as I used to be like this time last year, but I always say its quality not quantity. I have worked to better my relationships with my family and better myself. I have always been able to sleep well at night knowing that I have not done anyone any harm, yet now I am occasionally having sleepless nights just worrying about some people and how THEY are feeling relating to the harm they have done me. Yet I always say "allah ma ya'6rub ib 3a9a" (God does not beat with a stick) and simply roll over and sleep.

I have never claimed nor will I ever claim to be a good muslim because I do admit that when it comes to following religion's guidelines, I am not one for discipline, YET I feel and Im confident that I am a good person. I always wonder how many times I have had almost REALLY bad things happen to me whether they are accidents or such then I realise that God must be rewarding me for the good that I am doing in some way or other. Kil wa7id y7a9il 3ala gad ily ysaweeh (Everybody gets the same amount back as they do).

I am happy with who I am. Whatever I do is between myself and God.

Recently got a quote from a friend that I LOVED

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"

Over and out

Another Mini Break

I know its ridiculous how much I go to Dubai but I can't help it. Majority of my real friend live there. I have a great time every time I go whether I spent the weekend going out meeting new people of just chilling at home with friends, munchies and a good movie.

So why is it that every time I say I'm going to Dubai lately I get the raised eyebrows from people or the "again!!!!!!!" comments. I really don't get it? Why are some people so bothered about my frequent weekends away? Am I bothering anyone?

And now the latest trend I'm getting is the "who's the guy" barrage of questions. Seriously? You think I go to Dubai every other weekend for a guy? He wishes! In fact if anyone knows me well enough they will know that if there WAS a guy I would never go. Its enough that the guys already have big heads la ba3ad akabirla raseh bizyada atna6a6 kil isbu3 oo tark laih 3indeh?!?! Noooo ssiiiirrrreeeeeee.

I go to have fun and get away from the trash I'm surrounded by here in Muscat. Why can't people just smile and tell me to have a good time?

7ad ywa9y shay min hnak? Zain a7san.
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Blog's 3rd Birthday

And again I missed it - for some reason i keep thinking its in October and I just decided to double check and it turns out that it was in June.

Aaahhh never mind.

Hope I will catch the 4th on time.

Lama of Me Myself and I

Shda3wa this morning kan kil shay tamam oo ga3 agra the first part of Al Razeen oo yeet aby asawy comment lakin at work 3indna shwayat 5arabee6 - bas pop up comment boxes i can comment with. wal7een 9irtay private - la oo bidoon ma ti3zimeeny ba3ad?? la la la chee az3al wayid tara

Im been a fan of your blog min zman - min ayam ur original real life story.

So please saweely invite 3ala moody_1@hotmail.com

oo ily invited on her blog please gooloolha iny msawyatliha hal post dedication

Took a Break

Why hello there everyone. I know you havent missed me really but I will just pretend that you did and that I am back by popular demand. LOOOOL

I took some much needed time off and left town for an original 7 days that extended to 11 days. LOL. Since it was pretty much last minute and I could not plan exact departure and arrival dates due to the house and work situations (Im choosing to neglect the studies part of it which is the main culprit), I was not able to go anywhere to far.

So when 3aneeda has a few days off where does she go??

Yep you got it right. I went to Dubai. Took the weekend as super relaxing with lots of pool lounging and swimming and the heavy stuff started on Friday July 3rd (coincidentally my 29th birthday - LOOOOL).

My friend checked me out of the hotel at the end of the first weekend and moved me into her place. That was probably the best thing she could have done. The holiday then converted into a mega girly break with lots of chilling out, TV and cooking and entertaining of friends. Especially since another friend of ours moved into the house with us.

This was a break I really truly needed. I met some new people that I know will remain in my life for a while. I also had some enlightenment towards those I used to call friends. Overall I came back relaxed with a huge load shifted off my shoulders, a spring in my step and a smile on my face.

To more enlightening breaks *click*

I Really Dont Know

Everyone has been asking me what I want for my birthday!!! I have never told anyone I want something specific for my birthday except for my sister. Shes the only one where she doesnt have a roof on her budget and neither do I.

For some reason we always exchange gifts end of July beginning of August which falls exactly in the middle of both our birthdays. Last year she got me the Swarovski / Phillips USB and I V-Kooled her car.

This year "Christmas" came early since shes out of town already and Im leaving in a few days inshallah. The presents this year were her allowing me to take her car to Dubai for my trip next week and her present was me paying for her car service. I think she liked the deal cos it means she doesnt have to worry about what Messrs. Rip Off Al Zawawi will make her pay straight after a 6 week holiday. Even Dad is predicting her coming back broke LOL.

But see with everyone else, I really dont care about the value of the present or even its existance. Honestly speaking I would rather not get anything than getting a bottle of perfume. I find them soooo impersonal and actually quite insulting. Even things like bathroom stuff and Body Shop packages and these things. These are a definite NO-NO for me.

I even used to think Gift Vouchers were insulting until I realised that getting someone a GV means they get to buy something they like. So I changed my mind about them. But people asking me whats on my wishlist!!! NOO WAY. I will never reveal. I have so many things on my wishlist mainly consisting of designer handbags so since I definetly will NOT expect those from anyone, whats the point.

There are also some other things I need - i.e. a replacement for my sunglasses that I lost in my last Dubai trip. But these things are tricky. I mean what if someone buys me a pair of sunglasses that I end up hating ON ME but loving on the shelf!!! I need a keychain for my car keys but my car keys are funny and I have a few keychains that do not fit my car key.

What is the ideal Birthday Wish List?? And how can you avoid wasted gifts??

Myself - In 10

Remember how I said I was gonna do this Thing in 10 posts. Ive done 2 already one about my mom which apparently was a HUGE hit. LOL. The other one was about how I look. Well tonight I was out to dinner with some friends and this discussion came up and basically I felt like I was being scrutinised and it turns out that Im a much more open book that I thought / would have liked to be

Basically the main things that came up are:

1. I cannot hide emotions. This I knew since I have been told enough times by people that whatever I feel is semi-written on my forehead. But I didnt realise that I do things involuntarily like giggle in a specific way when I have something dirty going through my head or press in between my eyebrows when Im trying to come up with an excuse or a lie. Damn Ive been busted.

2. I am too caring and considerate. And the specific words used were "your too nice for ur own good" - apparently I have been walked all over without noticing and I was given examples as well.

3. If I begin to say something, i HAVE to finish it even it it comes later. Guess this comes from the "women speak 60K words per day" thing. LOL

4. I am always to be trusted when it comes to ordering food. This is strange because usually Im the one that eats weird stuff that nobody likes such as pineapple on pizza. Etc

5. When I am not motivated, it really shows by my body posture. Hhhhmm wonder how they came up with that.

6. I am easily excited. LOL. what can I say, a kid at heart

7. I am not a typical girl - yeah yeah yeah heard it all before. I swear if another person says that I am "wa7id min ilshabab" i will punch them in the face.

8. If I wanted to and I really beleived it, I can convince people that the sky is red. But only if I beleived it myself. I am very VERY 3aneeda.

9. When I try to lie, there is a red lightbulb that flashed over my head. Im THAT bad.

10. And what really really shocked me. My friends think I hold a grudge. This I argued with them forever. Finally I think they accepted that i do NOT in fact hold grudges against people, I forgive very easily BUT I never forget. Fooled me once, shame on you, fooled me twice shame on me.

It was an enlightening sitdown. We went around analysing every single person who was at dinner and it was interesting. How on some points we all agreed on something but the person would not beleive / accept it.

Now Im curious to know, what do you guys as bloggers that do not know me personally or have interacted with me personally think of me?? I would be curious to know.

Please do share in your comments - if you want

Sh9ayer??

I noticed lately ineh ako wayid nas are getting very worked up about other blogs and the contents of these blogs. Lately i fell across two worrying blogs both with content warnings which is the first indication of danger.

One is what appears to be this Israeli girl who lives in India who basically fucks about and numbers the guys. Fair enough if shes a nympho and wants to flaunt it fine, but please we dont wanna see pics. And those pics are nasty especially the fact that she doesnt "maintain" if you know what i mean girls. LOL

The other one which I think is causing a bigger riot purely for being a girl from our region has caught a lot of attention lately I noticed. Other blogs are writing whole posts about her and discussing her very openly. I saw her blog and honestly speaking I just think she has a split personality.

Anyways, my point is whats the big fuss about?? So this one likes to document her sexcapades, and the other one has imaginary ones. Whenever I see an update from them (and yes I confess I follow them both) i just read, rant and scream silently in my head and close the window. Maleh da3y abadan the public cursing and swearing and calling of names.

I guess its a question to those that DO leave nasty comments and such. Why do you do it??

UPDATE: And another one bites the dust - Liberal Khaleejiya deletes her blog

Its Already Been a Year

RIP Ali Mehdi

Allah yer7amik wy'3amid roo7ik iljanna inshallah

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Useless Day

Today was completely wasted - I did absolutely nothing at work. I'm feeling guilty maybe I should just tell them to deduct a day from my annual leave or something.

Instead I spent the whole day searching for properties in Dubai. Planning on celebrating my birthday there early next month cos I can't travel anywhere further. Looking for a weekly rental of a villa with a private pool. I will be going with family and close friends so we really wanna go all out.

So far I found a 4 bedroom apartment in JBR for 4900 dirhams - not bad at all. Works out to be about 200 dirhams per night per room. That is truly a bargain.

I can't believe I will be turning 29 in 26 days. I don't feel like I'm 29. I've recently been having the "when did u panic" conversation and most said the 25 or 26 range. I still haven't panicked.

Am I normal?
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